Ici, c’est Paris

Sunset in Paris from the Parc de Belleville, with moon and Eiffel Tower. Photo by Jeff Mitchell, April 2011.

I lived in Paris for the 2010-2011 academic year, in the 11ème, about a half block from the Bataclan concert hall where, the day before yesterday, so many people were shot and killed, after others were shot and killed on streets and in restaurants nearby, after explosions at the Stade de France, as well as in Lebanon and Baghdad, where still more people were killed. And I’m not qualified to diagnose the world’s ills, I don’t understand it and I won’t pretend I have any idea. But Paris is on my mind—our tiny apartment and the old neighborhood, the market where little old French ladies elbowed my large, polite husband out of their way, the dirty streets, the protests that filled Boulevard Voltaire every couple weeks.

Americans have a lot of fantasies about Paris. Beautiful, romantic, sophisticated, liberated or libertine, home of the finest food, art, and fashion, home of philosophers and poets and painters… or, for some people, the center of effète snobbery and elitist crap. I’m not sure why, but Paris exists for many of us as an ideal, mythical place, and that fantasy place isn’t entirely fictional, either. Paris is all those things—it’s got the art, the food, the poets and philosophers and snobs. So I think Paris holds a place in the American imagination that other cities do not. Attacks on Paris are attacks on our dreams.

But Paris is also a city made of people, millions of people who live and work there and have all their lives, for whom the city is not a fantasy but a real place, a tricky and twisty place that must be managed and manipulated, that can be enormously frustrating. It’s filthy, expensive, polluted and overpopulated; you have to wait in lines, watch for pickpockets, watch your step. If the weather’s bad and you’re trapped in the cold, damp 15 square meters that constitute your temporary home, it can start to drive you a little crazy. And Paris has been a battlefield many times throughout its history, during the Wars of Religion, the many Revolutions, the Commune. It’s a city that suffers, and bleeds, and endures. People are lost, and that is tragic and cruel; but Paris isn’t going anywhere.

But if you’re an American reading this and mourning the dream, here’s an idea. Next time the weather’s good enough, grab yourself a friend–or a lover, or a book, either way; a blanket or three (it’s November, after all), a bottle of wine, some bread and nice cheese. Go find a sunny spot to lie in. Snack and talk and get a little tipsy, check out the world around you, the people and the sky. That was always the beautiful life in Paris, for me.

Napping on our yellow piquenique blanket in the Jardin de Reuilly. Photo by Jeff Mitchell, whose shadow is visible on the upper right. April, 2011.

Notes from the Deep End

Lately an itchy feeling has been growing somewhere deep in my brain, a weird little mosquito bite bump with a tiny toothy mouth and scary smudged lipstick, sorta like in that Beckett play, and it says to me, Haven’t updated your website in a while, have you? People will think you’re one of those lazy non-website-updating jerks who start websites and then don’t update them. Also you look weird in that photo from last time. You want people to think you’re a hardworking writer/grad student, you better get typing. And then the freaky talking mosquito bite starts cackling because it knows it has hit all the anxiety buttons, and I become terribly anxious to prove that I am not only semi-normal-looking and hardworking but also not as crazy as this whole paragraph seems to prove. Thus, this post.

First, some actual news! Blurring the Line is now available for pre-order, and you can see the full contributor list, and there’s a lot of cool people in it, way cooler than little old me, and yeah! Buy it, if you’re interested, and it will show up on your electronic reading machine on November 26th.

Other news! I have received and corrected galleys for my article on the merveilleux scientifique in Third Republic French fiction, which is set to appear in The French Review next March. Yep. I’m pretty excited about it.

Mostly! I am working on my dissertation, and trying to eke out stories bit by bit, and sending them out to editors on little gusts of hope, and you know what editors do with hope, don’t you? … I was going to tell you that they toss it in a blender with fresh kitten blood, three shots of Everclear and a dollop of mascarpone, but that’s not true. They don’t care nearly that much.

In addition! I’ve been learning to swim. Yes, yes, I know, swimming’s easy, nobody taught you, somebody just threw you in the pool and you’ve been paddling around like a goddamn golden retriever ever since, so what am I bragging about? Well, I’m not bragging, but some of us have never been quite so confident in the laws of physics or our own ability to manipulate them. Nor had I ever seen much evidence that I possessed any natural buoyancy (in fact, the contrary seemed true), so I approached the idea of floating much as I did the idea of levitation: Nice trick, if you can manage it. 

But I am pleased to report that I am as buoyant as the average person, and proper arm-waving and leg-kicking have the predicted effects, and I can now sort of do the front crawl. So if someone threw me in the deep end, the last you saw of me would not be just my middle finger slowly sinking under the water as I drowned. No, I would splash victoriously to the surface and swim (very slowly and awkwardly) away into the sunset, and never speak to that evil Lia-throwing person again.

Lastly! To counteract the idea that I looked weird in the previous photo, here’s another picture! in which I look really, really weird.

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Here I am with a giant puffball mushroom, pretending like I am an intensely fascinated forest creature, or maybe a zombie mistaking it for brains, or something like that. The mushroom was kinda old and smelled like rotting feet. Photo by Jeff Mitchell, taken in Lake Elmo Park Reserve, October 2015.

why counteract the idea if it’s true, eh?

Sunfish: Midwestern Gothic #18

The new Midwestern Gothic is out! Midwestern Gothic is a great literary magazine dedicated to promoting the writers and artists of the Midwest, and this summer I am exceedingly pleased to tell you that it includes my story “Sunfish,” as well as the work of many other excellent writers.

I wrote this story mostly while up at my family’s vacation house on Lake Wilson, way up in the middle of nowhere, kinda near the Boundary Waters. So the setting is based in reality, and it’s a “realist” story (as opposed to speculative—no aliens or sentient marble in this one—not like in the Flaubertian sense or whatever) but the characters and story are entirely fictional.

Here is a picture of our real lake, where I am in fact staying right at this very moment.

(That’s me fishing for crayfish using the traditional Finnish method of tying little bits of ham to a string and dangling it in the water. The tantalized crayfish will then grab on with his claws and you can just pull him out, keep him in the minnow bucket, and then boil him and eat his tasty little tail. I don’t know why I think of crayfish as male but I do. This is not actually a traditional Finnish thing. Finns only eat rye crackers and reindeer jerky, salted with tears. Okay, I made that up, too. Anyway. Also pictured: my dog, Romeo, and my husband’s foot. Photo by Jeff Mitchell.)

(That’s me fishing for crayfish using the traditional Finnish method of tying little bits of ham to a string and dangling it in the water. The tantalized crayfish will then grab on with his claws and you can just pull him out, keep him in the minnow bucket, and then boil him and eat his tasty little tail. I don’t know why I think of crayfish as male but I do. Like little macho dudes with their fists stuck out, spoiling for a fight. Okay, so this is not actually a traditional Finnish method of crayfishing. I don’t think there is one. Finns only eat rye crackers and reindeer jerky, salted with their secret tears. Okay, I made that up, too. Anyway. Sorry, real Finns! Also pictured: my dog, Romeo, and my husband’s foot. Photo by Jeff Mitchell, June 2014.)

Midwestern Gothic is available both online ($3) and in print ($12); you can download or order Issue #18 here. Here’s the opening paragraph to give you a feel for the story:

Flies zip and bang against the picture window, looking for the night out there, the rush of wind and waving trees. So beautiful, is what the city people will say; they’ll gaze out upon the lake, hear the loons calling across, inhale the breeze through the pines. And it is beautiful, but Hildie and Maren don’t much notice—they’ve been seeing it everyday for sixteen and seventeen years, as long they’ve had eyes open to look.

Many thanks to Midwestern Gothic for including my story, and a million billion thanks to anyone who buys the magazine.

ETA! You can also look at the Google Books preview of the issue. (7/27)